What the sky can do

May 2026: Every square on our calendar is full.

Emails crowd my inbox:
Field Trip Thursday
Field Day Monday
Trump in China
Strep in PS3

Someone on Instagram wants me to buy pore strips.

Someone else decries gerrymandering.

Someone else has THE SECRET to staying lean in your forties.

My head spins with each alert, each breaking news story. There’s much to track and tend, much to worry over. Is the issue our smartphones? I don’t think we were made to handle this barrage of information. Can we talk about the sky instead?

How, when school lets out Tuesday, charcoal and periwinkle clouds loom above us, heavy with rain. Children squeal. Unicorn and superhero backpacks bob. Raindrops tickle our noses, tap our shoulders, then chase every student and parent home. Everyone except Jack.

I hold my umbrella out to my son, but he waves it away.

“I love the rain, Mom,” Jack declares, looking up at the sky and strolling toward our car. His little brother mirrors him. Around us, others race ahead. I want to rush home too — I need to cook and serve dinner before the boys’ busy sports night, and with my husband traveling for work, I have extra chores to finish. My hair whips in the wind. Rain falls in thick ribbons, pooling in patches of lush green grass.

My boys saunter towards our gray Tiguan. I shift my pace to match theirs.

Safe in the dry confines of home, I check my phone. Messages roll in:
Soccer cancelled
Checking baseball fields
No game tonight

My heartbeat, which I didn’t even realize is racing, slows. “Baseball and soccer are off tonight, boys!” I call from the kitchen, my voice bright. “Let’s have a cozy night in, okay?”

After dinner, we pop “Zootopia 2” in the DVD player. The boys plop in front of the living room TV, and I unearth the air popper. The music of giggling boys and the pop-pop-pop of our favorite snack fills my ears. I circle an arm around my youngest and lean my head against soft leather, joining them for the show.

By the time the movie ends, we are sufficiently relaxed. I check my watch: late for bedtime. Although my kids want to savor the credits, I morph into a drill sergeant, barking orders. Jack flies up the stairs to start his bath. His brother follows after him to change into his pajamas. I flit across the house to change out the laundry, start the dishwasher and water the flowers in our hanging baskets. Opening the front door, I stop in my tracks.

The delicious scent of wet grass washes over me. Suburban streets shine slick from the rain, which has stopped. I pause on the porch, surveying the scene.

I’m struck by how tired I am. Running a household with little kids is hard enough, but I’m especially weary of every breaking news alert and our broken democracy and war and all the messages vying for my attention. What I want is to slow down and feel awe. To bask in the beauty of the world before me. To know I’m not in control here. To lift my eyes and watch for news from the Creator.

Candy-colored clouds float against a pale blue sky and buttery light gleams in patches on the lawn, everything new and old all at once, inviting me to “be still and know,” if only for a moment. So I won’t forget, I step out and take the picture.

This reflection first appeared in “Headlines to Heartbeats,” a collaborative project by Callie R. FeyenMelissa KutscheKimberly Knowle – Zeller, and Erin Strybis. We pull real headlines from the news—headlines that surprise, inspire, baffle, enrage, trigger, and entertain—and create art to respond.

Prayers for mothers

Mother’s Day stirs up complicated feelings: For some, it is a day to celebrate. Others, a day to mourn. Some both. Still others, neither. For me, the holiday brings to mind my mom, grandmas, and mother-in-law, plus a myriad of other mother figures whose love shaped the woman I am today. My own motherhood journey has been full of ups and downs — from a traumatic birth to juggling and eventually leaving full-time work to joy at the playground to a healed relationship with my body. All these moments and more brought me to my knees in prayer and led me to write a devotional for moms with my dear friend, Kimberly Knowle-Zeller.

Kim and I wrote The Beauty of Motherhood to provide spiritual nourishment to moms in the thick of raising young children. Our collection of devotions encourages moms to slow down and see the beauty before them, and to know they are not alone in this hard, holy work. In advance of Mother’s Day, we’re sharing four prayers from our book to remind moms that, however you feel this weekend, you are seen, you are surrounded by other mothers who can relate, and you are deeply loved by your Creator.


A prayer for tired moms
God of love, meet me in the dark
and breathe life into these tired bones,
breathe life into me
and show yourself—
you are the light at the end of the tunnel
shining for me
leading me from heartache
to hope
Help me see the beauty of the dark
to know you meet us in every waking moment.
Amen.

A prayer for moms seeking grace
Forgiving God,
when I feel overwhelmed, give me peace.
When I lose my temper, give me peace.
When I can’t stop arguing, give me peace.
When I need rest, give me peace.
Help me to offer forgiveness.
Help me to seek forgiveness.
Trusting, always, your mercy renews me.
In Jesus’ name, I pray. Amen.

A prayer for grieving moms
God of all time and all places, your love reaches beyond our understanding.
Our loved ones are with us even when their bodies are no longer on this earth. It’s a mystery and a gift. We give thanks for those who have died. As we grieve and remember, help us to trust that their love reaches us, and that they are never far from us. In Jesus’ name we pray. Amen.

A prayer for moms seeking gratitude
All-knowing God,
these are our good old days—
days of crumbs on the carpet
of tucking the covers just so
and planting kisses on our children’s foreheads
of well-worn shirts and toys scattered across the carpet
soccer cleats and socks crowding the doorways
ballet shoes abandoned in the basement
crayoned art hung on the fridge
and picture books stacked on the nightstand
of Sesame Street and Paw Patrol
and favored stuffies
days of hope, grace, love, forgiveness
of feeling your love in the arms of our children

God, these are the good old days
give me eyes to see your presence
woven into the fabric of our ordinary existence.
Amen.

the beauty of motherhood
Photo by Dani Elgas

These prayers were excerpted from The Beauty of Motherhood: Grace-Filled Devotions for the Early Years, available via Bookshop, Barnes & Noble, Amazon and wherever books are sold.

Believe women

The ones to break
news of Jesus’ resurrection
were the women — 
Mary Magdalene, Joanna, 
Mary, the mother of James

Jesus approached them in the garden
when the women spoke out
some did not believe them
Even now, women speak truth
and many refuse to accept it 

My most sacred confessions 
have been to women

When I was dead inside,
women resurrected me.
They said I believe you
It wasn’t your fault 
You are good

I couldn’t believe in myself 
but I believed them.

S H I N E

verb: to reflect or release light
noun: radiance; the brightness caused
by a bounce or outpouring of light

My verbs are:
Reading Frog & Toad, Hilo and The Jesus Storybook Bible
Bringing my boys to church
Giggling together on family movie night
Writing between school dropoff and pickup
Throwing a baseball over and over
Lingering outside until sunset

My nouns are:
Buttered toast and apple juice
Hot pepperoni pizza and fizzy root beer
Magna-Tiles and Legos strewn over the carpet
Bright smiles for “One more race!” in Mario Kart
Handwritten drafts, Google docs and Substack
Prayers for goodness and forgiveness

My confessions:
I do not know how to reconcile
my small life raising small people
with my big dreams of writing.

Am I teaching them to be kind?
Do they know how much I love them?
Or see how hard I’m trying?
Will I ever publish another book?

For every struggle
and every joy,
every sacrifice
and every lesson —
there’s no grade.
Oftentimes, I want one.

God, do you see me?
Am I doing enough
to reflect your grace and your glory?

Here is the better question:
Can I trust you enough to release
my grip on my plans and my ambitions?


// Callie Feyen’s poem “Witness,” from her new book When We Swung from Church Bells, inspired this poem’s structure. “Shine” is my word of the year for 2026.

A prayer for presence this Advent

Advent begins with early sunsets —
daylight retreats. The dark descends
like watercolor. Night after night,
twinkle lights appear, brightening
each block. Christmas trees shimmer,
candles flicker on Advent wreaths.

Holy One, let me reflect your love
like the lights shining in the darkness.

Carolers crowd a city square, singing
“O come, O come, Emmanuel…”
Jingle bell ring out, signaling charity
collection on the corner. An organ
rendering of “Silent Night” floats
from a packed sanctuary.

Holy One, let me harmonize with you,
making known your eternal song.

Advent is a time for telling ancient tales
and collecting wishes. For feasting
and giving. Warm laughter and hugs.

Holy One, keep me attuned
to your glow, your music — soon
angels will proclaim that the Light
of the world is dawning. May I wait
in wonder. Amen.

// This prayer first appeared in my Substack newsletter, Nourish, but I wanted it to have a home here as well. Wishing you a peaceful holiday season.

What I love about Halloween

For one night, 
this country looks different…

Pumpkins deck doorways,
skeletons adorn front yards,
orange lights glow.

Little princesses, ninjas,
sports stars and singers parade 
the sidewalks, parents in tow.

We open our doors,
greet our neighbors’ children,
offer them Twizzlers and Twix,
Snickers and Sour Patch Kids,
pretzels, popcorn, fruit snacks and more.

We say, “Wow, look at that costume!”
“Happy Halloween!”
“Here, have a treat!’

What we mean is,
*I see you.*
*You are welcome here.*
*Take and eat.*

This is a night when 
children are cherished.

And I wonder, 
what would happen if we 
held on to our Halloween spirit?

How would the world change 
if we opened our doors 
— and shared — more often?

Reaching for goodness

“A writer will be interested in what we don’t understand rather than what we do.” —Flannery O’ Connor

Your oldest son asks what you and his dad are whispering about before dinner. Facing a cutting board strewn with tomato juice, you startle as if you’ve been caught passing notes in class. He cocks his head, waiting. 

“Dad and I were discussing gun violence… again” would be the honest answer. You glance at your husband. “Don’t worry about it, honey,” is what you say instead, picking up the knife and slicing more tomatoes. Which is ironic, considering the fact that you are indeed worrying — about school shootings, political violence, the genocide in Gaza, wars abroad and division in your country.

Your son doesn’t like your answer, but he’s already moved on, curious about what you’re cooking for dinner. Tacos, you answer. It’s taco Tuesday, after all, and the absurdity of making pico de gallo while grappling with death makes your stomach churn.

At church, your pastors preach that God is good and people are sinful, and while you agree, you also wonder about this message’s effect on the human psyche week after week. And what of the barrage of bad news we receive, almost daily, on our screens? How does that affect one’s heart? 

At the start of the creation story, God makes humans in God’s own image and calls them very good. Sinfulness writes headlines, but what about our innate capacity for goodness? 

You think of the way your youngest wraps his arms around your back and hugs you hard like he’ll never let go. You think of your oldest, and the stories he tells you before he drifts off to sleep at night, how he loves to have you listen. Yes, your kids fight and whine — all kids do — but oh, what a marvel they are, what a gift of creation.

The next day, when your beautiful children are at school, you sit at a library desk and press your pen to the page. You wonder, why bother writing at all when there’s so much brokenness around us? What good will my words do, anyhow? Why write?

You look up, eyes settling on elegant shelves brimming with books. When you were young, you reveled in storytime with your parents. After you could read on your own, you carried books with you the way you used to carry around your favorite flower blanket. Since childhood, stories have been your compass, a means to navigate a confusing world. You write because you first read.

As a freelance writer, you create work no one wants to pay for, but everyone needs. Articles, essays and devotions guide our thinking. Poems, prayers and stories comfort us at weddings and funerals, birthdays and graduations. Writing often garners measly (if any) wages and is already being replaced by AI. You write because the need to express is human, and our stories are marked by emotions, memories and hard-earned insights no computer can ever comprehend. Human storytellers have had a place in society for eons and they will continue to be vital. Life begets art; art begets life. You claim the title storyteller.

You write because once, an author wrote something that touched the deepest part of you, and you finally felt known and less messy and truly worthy and you want to try and do the same thing for someone else. You fold your memories and reflections with care and fashion them into an origami crane. You place the crane into a reader’s hands and say, “Here. I made this for you, I hope it makes you feel less alone. I hope it makes you feel something.” 

You write because holding a pen in your hand is akin to stepping on an express train. It’s as if God handed you a ticket and murmured, Enjoy the ride. You write because the journey beckons.

You write because filling a blank page with ideas empties you like nothing else can. Writing is hard work for a busy mind like yours. You aren’t the kind of writer who can produce graceful material upon first draft. If anything, your drafts are a lot like your garden — in need of weeding, watering and time in the sun. In other words: wild.

Maybe revision is part of the appeal? You spent many years as an editor, clearing space for others’ stories to ripen. After tending wild words, you feel wrought out, clear, purposeful, powerful. 

True, you might toil for hours unseen on one paragraph that will be read by two people and cause seven to unfollow you. Nevertheless, you nurture stories for the few who pause to appreciate their beauty — and will then be moved to grow and bloom themselves. 

And it’s this beauty that guides you today, as you sort through memories from recent days, searching for evidence of God’s grace among us.

You write to reach for goodness. 

How else would you remember a cool breeze rippling through your sweater on a September morning, your first sighting of crimson leaves, foreshadowing the approaching autumn? How else would you remember tossing the football with your eight-year-old son, both of you barefoot in the yard, amber light filtering through the trees, and the glowy feeling inside when he asked you to play with him? (You feel lucky he still asks.) Who else will account for your preschooler’s make believe, and the cookies and fruit he served you in the play kitchen? You write because you love your family, and you love God’s world and this act of documenting what you love is a prayer of thanksgiving. 

You write because you can’t imagine not writing. Your hand gets itchy if you aren’t able to write for too many days. Because there is a story waiting to be written that only you can tell. Because readers are waiting to be known by your words. Because you were created to create. Because, in spite of everything, you believe in humans’ capacity for goodness. Everyone is starving for kindness and you will do your small part to serve up hope.

Wishes

I wish that I was younger
and I wish I wasn’t so concerned about
the passage of time
seeing lines in my reflection,
aging parents, taller kids

I wish that I was richer
and I wish I wasn’t bothered by
the cost of eggs and our medical bills,
how we’ll afford to send our children
to college, how to pay for a new home

I wish our government was kinder
and I wish there was
a crystal ball I could use to predict
how to preserve freedom, peace
and justice for us all

I can’t wish away the hunger
I can’t wish away the hate
But I can name what’s broken
I call for change
and ask myself what I can give
to ease my neighbors’ pain

I wish that I was braver
And I wish I could give voice
to every injustice
that I witness and have experienced
as a mother
as a woman
as a girl

I wish I was a better Christian
and wife and mom
the kind of person who doesn’t
use sharp words with the ones I love the most
I wish I could sand my rough edges
give them the softest version
of my heart

All of these wishes
I keep them hidden
Will any come true?
All of these wishes
I hope God hears them
God, make me new

// Poem inspired by “Wishes,” a song by Tiny Habits

Reasons to wake early

To witness fuschia streak across the sky
and tangerine clouds outlined in gold
To notice sparrows singing
To savor hot coffee without interruption
To breathe
To untangle a thicket of thoughts on paper
before the day unfolds
To thank God for another spin
around the sun
To remember that, as the sky evolves,
I can too
To dwell in light — and possibility

First snow

Glittering from the heavens
“Stick out your bubblegum tongue,”
I say. “Taste a bit of magic.”

Whole cars are swallowed
Gardens and rooftops blanketed
Take this messy world and make it
cool clean sparkling bright

My son dives in
Soon he’s swimming in sugar
Sifting it with his mittens
Floating on his back, beaming at the sky
Leaving behind imprints of angel wings

And when the 6:00 church bells
start chiming “Joy to the World”
he says,
“Mommy, let’s dance!”

So we twirl and twirl and twirl
in that fine snow
Cool clean sparkling bright.